A asked: Is my creative semi-mystical endeavour with dreams and creativity foolish? Will it ever get somewhere? Should I stop and look elsewhere, or stop looking altogether?

The rune I've drawn for you, dear A, is Teiwaz, the rune of truth and victory. "Tiw is a guiding star; well does it keep faith with princes; it is ever on its course over the mists of night and never fails." It is holy to the god Tyr, the one-handed swordsman, lord of glory, justice, sacrifice, and single combat. He is the one who bound Fenrir the Arch-Wolf until the End of the World, but he lost his right hand in the struggle. So struggle on in your endeavor, even if you lose a limb or two, it will be worth it.